From when I was a very little girl, any reference to a spanking made me excited. I’ve always fantasized about being spanked, embarrassed, controlled, and owned, but I thought there was something terribly wrong with me for doing so. I felt ashamed and guilty. I tried to banish the desires, but they always came back. The conflict I felt between them and my feminist ideals compounded my shame and guilt.
[Louiza’s writing have been moved to SpankingLife as well. Find out more here. Steve]